Evan - Angst

 

The angst I feel, the mixed emotions, when Emily is with Evan, with her boyfriend. Tanya mentioned something, about those mixed emotions.

I said there's part of me that feels terrible angst knowing what they do together. Knowing he does things I've never done. That she does things she'd never do with me (never has and never will). Part of me feels angst at how happy she feels with him. It's not love, or at least not love like our love, but he gives her something she needs.

Part of me feels angst at just the mechanics of it. A man's cock inside my wife. My wife eager to worship and suck his cock. A man literally filling my wife with cum.

But there is a part of me that loves it. Loves it more than I should.

Because that's what I've been doing for several days now. 

Leaking.

Thinking about it and leaking.